9.3.09

Thirty seconds to life

I don't know but what if it's all
really for nothing and the things
you say are all for less
what if the guns were there for
the taking and the knives and the
lives and the stacks disappeared
one day
when you no longer care what I think
I'll tell you how I longed for a
slap in the face to tell me you
knew
what I was thinking even though I
never made a pass
one day my mom slapped me and my
lips against my braces bloodied
and scared her
one day
she called me a whore
and the truth of that statement
bloodied and scared her
one day when you no longer pretend
to love me I'll tell you how I
just wanted a piece of me to be in
your head forever because I give
dust pieces of myself to anyone
who needs them and even someone
who doesn't
I know you won't read this but that
won't stop me from writing it
one day when we have seen all there
is to see you'll know how banal

8 comments:

Kris said...

This is wonderful. Good job.

Roberta said...

I
just wanted a piece of me to be in
your head forever because I give
dust pieces of myself to anyone
who needs them and even someone
who doesn't

*nod of recognition*

An Unreliable Witness said...

I think many people want to sprinkle even just a few crystals of their dust in people's minds. I certainly know that I do.

Beautiful. And moving.

[Now stop showing us all up and write a haiku about Cheddar, please.]

Monkeypotpie said...

I have pieces in my head I want out, but my knife isn't sharp enough.

Nice work.

Robb Todd said...

Damn that shit was nice. Real real niiiice. I especially liked


"I'll tell you how I longed for a
slap in the face to tell me you
knew"

and

"dust pieces of myself"

mmm

Ani Smith said...

Hi Kris and Monkeypotpie: welcome.

I am loathe to admit I wondered what monkey pot pie tastes like. And then I was queasy recalling that faces of death with the monkey brains bashing and eating scene. Anyone see that one?

Men are beasts.

I love you, though. I do.

Especially Robb. The way he types nice with extra I's gives me tingles down there.

I am a mass of conflicting emotions right now.

Monkeypotpie said...

I did indeed see the monkey-brain part of that... 'movie'.

Not sure what I taste like. I'll find someone to sample me and get back to you.

ty bluesmith said...

monkeypotpie is gross.