29.9.08

I hate myself and want to die

and what I know most is what I do not know
I can't swim, for example
or whistle a tune
sew a prom dress
or self-soothe
I can't speak without stumbling over words
or loud enough to be heard
I'm shit at math
drawing
baking
lego-building
grammar
I don't know about politics
art
music (much)
finance
intuition
faith
poetry
what's the point
really
of me
and millions
like me

6 comments:

An Unreliable Witness said...

Well, quite. There's no point in anything if you're shit at lego-building. Pffft.

Are you any good at plasticine moulding? That might offer possibilities for redemption ...?

jem said...

This reminds me of that old thing and interviews - list your strengths, then your weaknesses. Far more of the latter always come to mind.

Tim said...

I don't know if this will help you or not, but I can totally relate to how you feel.

Most days I feel as if I must be the must defective person on the planet. I would love to be able to think of one thing about me that was special.

I wish I had the answers, but I don't. I just wanted to let you know that you're not alone.

Thanks

Tim

Miles McClagan said...

Did you ever see the Japanese T-shirt that in bright rainbow colours that said "I Hate Myself and I Want To Die?"

I bought three

Roberta said...

finance is for accountants and city boys.
and, seriously, the world has enough of those.

at least stumbling over words can be funny. finance really isn't.

Ani Smith said...

I meant to give credit and say that 'I hate myself and want to die' is a Kurt Cobain quote. Not that anyone cares anymore. But you know, for my own peace of mind.

[I still hate me.]